Grrrrr!, originally uploaded by chaoflux.

Grrrrrrrr!!!!

If you had to pick only one night, show up on Saturday.

Anyways,  my scanner is broken. I drew the black elements of the woman by hand, took a crappy cell phone picture, cleaned up the image a little, vectorized it, and cleaned it up some more. The original was a single line drawing that I did in one continuous stroke. After that, added some extra elements to flesh it out a little. Presto.

Time worked : 4:30am – 7:15am

There is certainly a motif I am currently working with.

Hope your Thanksgiving makes you poop alot.

xoxo

Ryan Alexander-Tanner, of PDX Exposed and Dave’s Killer Bread fame, made a portrait of me! Behold!

Recently he made a pretty awesome post on his blog about a t-shirt design he was making for Dave, its a funny and insightful view into the painful world of being a creative for hire. Take a look.

Back in the day I used to come home from a long hard day at the porn store and Ryan would be up at 4AM reading and drawing comics, then we would go get some Rodeo Burgers at Burger King. How fondly I look back onto these simpler times.

Anyways, you should subscribe to his blog. His work has a really rich satisfying quality, and his personality shines through in all of it.

I really need to get on some ink brush work!

Thanks Ryan!

This is why I’m hot., originally uploaded by chaoflux.

No caption needed.

Painters kit, originally uploaded by chaoflux.

I figured out how to make myself paint, trick is to stay at the internets
teat and drink cheap wine.

Owl in a Designers Den, originally uploaded by chaoflux.

give a hoot, pollute your poopchute

I took this picture around two years ago, its one of my favorite photos I have ever taken.

The plan was to sit on it for a while, and get a large print made up for a gallery show one day. It has been too long, so here it is.

It sums up everything about me, at least at the time I took it. I’m remembering myself lately, and revealing this image is in tune with that.

Manifesting and being what is on the screen at the same time, self love like snorting lines of absolutely absurd indulgent narcissism.

Its these kinds of pictures that have won me hoards of trolls and haters on these internets, people obviously too stupid to see that this is a counter-weight. The entire story isn’t here on the surface level, and it never has been.

Every item in the picture tells a little tale to me. Like I said many posts ago, ‘chaoflux’ means pleasant mess.

Feels good to expose myself.

As you can see I used the art I made earlier today and incorporated it into my design.

I’m really into the difference in the look here after darkening up the original.

thrown together in a few minutes like a vector haiku

Lots of things are going on with me, internally and externally.

Overall depression has been harder than usual to kick, but now I feel a little reinvigorated, feeling like I found the others, for real this time.

Anyways, plan is currently to go back to school sometime for fine art, no matter the expense or irrationality of it.

Got my catharsis this morning.